Hey Y’all! It has been a few weeks/months since I wrote in here. For a while I thought I would bury this blog and stop but then I remembered that this is my own place to write my own feelings. A place where I set goals. A place where I just open up. I’m reading some of my blog posts and wonder where the fire I had went. Four months ago (Jan – August) I was at the gym 4 to 5 times a week. Last 4 months I have done jack shit. Why you ask? Well life got stressful and when life go stressful I went back to my stress eating. Pounding down Oreo’s, eating crap, not making myself lunch. I moved out, got a new job, and finishing my thesis. I thought maybe this would be good for me. In some ways it has and in some ways I have learned the hard way.
Lets Recap my life since Day 0 in February:
- Me and Melissa finally became more then friends. Rocky or not it happened. I have learned a lot from this relationship. A LOT!
- I ran a 5K and a 4 Miler
- At one point I drank 50 oz of water at the gym alone everyday. I know not the best way to get my water intake but I did it regardless.
- I lost 60 pounds.
- I gained back about 15.
- I realized enough was enough this past weekend.
Melissa always tells me I need to express my feelings because she says its part of what passion inside of me really is. Lately I’ve been just angry and depressed. I’ve realized I need to turn that anger and depression into power/fuel.
So lets set some new goals.
- Run 3 5K’s
- Run 1 10K
- 70 Minutes a day on the elliptical when it arrives. (Lets hope for Monday)
- Journal my life.
- Be a real team leader at bowling. (I have a 191 average and I’m truly amazed at the season I am having)
- Get pass the 300 mark….its the hump I feel down on last time.
I bought that plaque in this room for a reason. Don’t ever be afraid because there is nothing wrong with failing while giving everything you got.